Bitching & Rafting.

I was thinking today about just how many pessimistic people there are in this world. Today as we all woke up to learn that Osama Bin Laden has finally been given justice, all the people in the City of New York are practically dancing in the streets with joy-- while so many other people are running their mouths about how "it's not really him, blah blah blah"--- I just want to run around screaming

"GET OVER YOURSELF, DEBBIE DOWNER! & LET THE REST OF US ENJOY THIS DAY FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH!!!"

uugh. for real. Some people just want to ruin everything for everyone-- & today those people are totally pissing me off.

Okay, enough of that-- NEXTTT:

I went white water rafting for the first time this past weekend! & in all honesty, I thought I was going to die more than once but after the fact-- it was a LOT of fun! 

11 of us went camping, rafting, ziplining & drinking all weekend. We sang campground-karaoke, we cooked campfire pies. We ate. and ate. and ate. and ate. and then drank some. WHEW. I think I gained 7lbs in just the last 48 hours. But it was a BLAST!!

Photo evidence below:



one of the few pictures where my face didnt register sheer terror. haha




shortest to tallest. classic. I would be far left. haha




our group after the adventure!



This trip was so much fun! I can't wait to do it again!

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Strength, Hope, Confidence, Faith

These four words are getting me through this week.

Last night was going good. I had dinner. I went to Comedy night at the Loft downtown. It was hilarious and made me laugh till I cried-- twice.

Then I went home.

There I learned the most disturbing news I have ever heard. It hit home right in the center of my heart -- litterally like a piping hot spear had hit me in the chest.

I didn't know what to do. I can't run. It's 11:00 at night and scary, bad people are on the streets at this time. Sleeping is not an option. I can't call anyone because I am only about 10% sure of anything I had just heard.

So I cried.    and I cried.. and I cried..




wow. that's a good one.

 
And then I stopped crying. And I started thinking [outloud] to myself "What are you doing?" .. I had done nothing wrong. I was wronged. By crying more I am only allowing the situation to affect me more. And that has got to stop.

I must have talked out loud to myself for a solid 2 hours.

I decided I am going to be strong throughout this situation. Not just SAY I'm going to do it, but I am. I've wasted enough energy worrying and stressing and questioning. That is over and strength is in.

I also decided I am going to have hope. I am going to live on hope that the future will be better. That this is the lowest point this situation can come to and that there are brighter days ahead. If I don't live like this, how will I live?

I am going to have confidence in myself. The things that are going to change in my life are not going to hurt me. I am going to be "okay". And I'm going to make it to the other side a happier person.



Lastly, I am keeping Faith- as I always should. but faith in this situation. Faith that I've learned something. Faith that God won't throw more than I can catch.

 

... i'm workin on it.





I feel so much better now.